It is 10 pm. And I can't seem to be able to sleep. Not that I am the early-to-bed-early-to-rise types, but I'm sure a day as tiring as today would any other time imply a sleepy 10 pm.
There seem to be too many things lingering in my mind, at a somewhat late hour, a time when I'd rather be reading Erich Sehghal's Love Story and wishing myself a good night's sleep and sweet-sugar-dreams about my dreamboy. I have the feeling that I'm stuck in a phase of life I don't deserve to face. This isn't the most helpless-clueless-confusing time I' ve ever faced, and I for sure know, I hold solutions for each problem i'm with-holding in closed hands, right within the moment I choose to open them for myself.
Most of the emotion I hold controlled right now is anger. Anger against everything that is asking me questions which I don't care to brood over. I am angry with a system, not a political/ religious or social system, but an everyday routine-system that is getting to my nerves with every passing second. I want to scream, swear and punch. not particularly someone and possibly anyone!
This is one of those times when I feel a social responsibilty of establishing a Screaming Club; which would serve the same purpose for the ladies, as the famous Fight Club does for men. I am sure as anything, it does help to sream; especially women I guess; to achieve a relaxation beyond achievement. Screaming; again not particularly goal oriented or with grudge; screaming... A scream that would take all this pressue away, a scream with no consequences, a scream which answers nothing, and cares a damn whether anything needs to be answered at all, and a scream that is totally irresponsible.
I am sure, it isn't a solution to any of the problems(/ whatever they are), that are leaving me disturbed nights. But sure, It feels awesome to scream!
P.S.: This screaming club idea... anyone with it? Leave me a mail, we' ll plan it out. ;-)
P.P.S.: Yes, I asked you to mail, all because it would be a secret society. ;-P Rule 1: You don't talk about it.
P.P.P.S.: I still don't understand what makes every guy a fan of Fight- Club. And, you care ask why I put that title up? I thought I'd grab an extra lot of readers.